Can I share a secret with you? (Pinky promise you won’t tell anyone…)
I literally have no idea what I’m doing!
… but, then, I rarely do.
Seriously, though… I’ve been dreaming about starting my own blog for some time now… picturing all the people I can help… all the things I can write… all the lives I can touch…
And I’m just sitting here, in front of my computer screen, looking around at my room, taking “mental stock” of all my bright and original ideas (which conveniently, seem to have all chosen this exact moment to go on vacation)…
And I’m just like, Dude… you legit don’t know what you’re doing…
You don’t know the first thing about writing a blog.
You don’t know how to write “professional” posts.
You don’t know how to do research on a topic. (Half the time, you don’t even know how to come up with a topic!)
You don’t know enough of the technical stuff that goes into creating a blog, to make sure that you do it all right.
You don’t know how to get your blog in front of other people.
You don’t know all the things you’re going to write about… all the things you want to write about… all the things you need to write about…
And… that’s all a little intimidating. Like, turn off the screen and step away from the keyboard, and go see what’s on Netflix intimidating.
Starting Something New is Always Scary Though
You see, I have a lot of ideas… I could say I spend all day basically just coming up with new ideas… but most of them… never make it out of the gate. Most of them are really good ideas, too; yet, I rarely act on more than two or three ideas in a given week.
You guys – it’s SCARY to take an idea, and to think it could lead to something new, something exciting, something amazing!… and put that idea in front of other people.
Especially when you already feel like you don’t know what you’re doing!
Fortunately, the internet allows some degree of separation between me and my reader… so that, most of the time I don’t have to worry about your reaction. I can just – write. But sometimes (and by “sometimes” I mean pretty much every time!), sometimes I get hung up.
I worry that my ideas won’t work. That they’re not all that amazing. That they sound really, really great in my own head – but that once I put them on paper… they won’t stand up to scrutiny.
Or that I will lack the vision, or the fortitude, to carry the idea through to fruition… basically, that I’ll start a fantabulous new project – but get discouraged fifteen minutes into it, and move on to something completely different.
And mostly, I feel that way… because I rarely feel like I actually know what I’m doing.
(Seriously – I never plan anything; I don’t do “brainstorming” sessions; I don’t “map out” my goals and dreams; I don’t have any idea where I see myself in 5 years. I rely 100% on “waiting for inspiration to strike,” but then, when it does, I’m ready to jump into action – even if I don’t know what that action looks like, or where it will take me.)
But That Fear Is Not Necessarily “Bad”
After all, they say that real growth only occurs when we step outside of our comfort zone. The only downside to that, is that it means you have to intentionally make yourself uncomfortable, in order to grow…
And “un-comfortable” is not my middle name lol…
(My middle name is actually “super amaze-balls epically brilliant fantastical author with deep and meaningful insight into the subtleties and nuances of human interaction with extra heavy-duty emphasis on how we are impacted by things like fear, worry, doubt, anxiety, uncertainty, overwhelm, discouragement, frustration, and always being picked last for kickball even though I really am a super fast runner and I swear next time I will actually be able to kick the ball but you just never give me a chance anyway and plus the sun was in my eyes for realz so it wasn’t my fault we lost last time!” But that’s kind of a mouthful so I usually leave my middle name out when I’m meeting someone for the first time.)
And yet here I am – intentionally uncomfortable. Half-scared out of my wits, yet determined to make a real go of this blog.
Because I believe in my message.
I believe that I have insight that other people need to hear.
I believe that I have a talent for showing people things they otherwise would never notice.
For helping others to identify their own roadblocks, and obstacles, and challenges…
and turn those things into strengths, and into opportunities to learn, and to grow.
To move from fear, pain, and disappointment…
To happiness, and relief, and possibility.
To constantly expand their capacity to laugh, to love, and to enjoy living.
Okay, That’s Nice – But How Can I Actually Believe All That?
I know that I can do that for other people – because I’ve spent this past year learning how to do it for myself. (And once you start to get the hang of it, it’s so bloody easy!)
I don’t know, today, how I’m going to do that.
But, I know that I can. And so… I owe it to myself, and to my reader… to try.
I hope that you will give me that opportunity.
That you will be patient with me as I learn what it means to “be a blogger.”
As I discover the direction this blog is taking me.
As I work to identify, and refine, my message.
And as I occasionally let loose, and bombard you with some of the most ridiculous writing you may have ever encountered in the English language since the days of Gulliver’s Travels. (At least.)
It won’t always be pretty.
It won’t always be easy.
(Sometimes, it won’t even make sense… you have been warned…)
My Promise To You
But I promise you…
If you stick around…
If you hit that subscribe button (whoopsie, I don’t have one of those yet… hold on… okay, it looks like that may be coming next week, actually… lols.)
I can promise you… if you get involved in this community… and if you tell me the things you want to know about… things that you may be struggling with… and give me and my readers a chance to help you…
I promise it will be worth it. (I don’t know how! But I absolutely know it will… anyway I can only get better from here, right?)
So, if you want to know what it looks like to sit with fear, with worry, anxiety, doubt, uncertainty…
If you want to know how to move beyond the thoughts and feelings that are currently holding you back…
Bookmark this blog right now.
(And, also subscribe as soon as I figure out how to actually set that up!)
And if you’re feeling especially brave, drop a comment below, and let me know one big, bad, scary topic, that you would like to see me address in a future post.
(I may even feel brave and adventurous myself someday, and share with you just what it takes to do something new and scary, when you have no idea what you’re doing!)
Anyway, gimme a like or a share, or comment below, if you enjoyed this post or if you find this kind of information at all relevant to your personal situation.