Long Term Sobriety Requires Actually Dealing With Problems I’d Rather Avoid
For the past two months, my life has felt unmanageable. I've been crazy, messed up, mixed up, upside down, off the charts, not even knowing what side of the map…
What I Did That Made My Relapse Pretty Inevitable
Long story short, I thought I had to do it all on my own. I wouldn't seek help from anyone, but instead resigned myself to "toughing it out." Well, at…
When Relapse Happens
Last week, I had a relapse. The overall specifics don't really matter (in the sense that, to an addict, anything can appear to be grounds for relapsing, so it doesn't really…
A Look Inside the Mind of a Porn Addict
NOTE: I originally wrote this just days after I successfully swore off pornography. Now, after three months of complete abstinence, a lot of these thoughts still run through my mind…
Just When It Looks Like Things Are Getting Better
On Thursday I wrote a pretty lengthy and somewhat complicated post, along the lines of the kind of stuff I used to write all the time before I quit coffee…
The Difficult Side of Recovery
It's been six weeks since I had a cup of coffee, or a cigarette... and almost twelve weeks since I've viewed pornography. Time-wise, I think it's safe to say that…
Day 41
Today (for the first time since I gave up coffee and cigarettes), I actually did something nice for myself. It was a small thing; in fact, on any other day…
Withdrawal Milestone One
A month ago I quit drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes. For 33 of the last 34 days, the withdrawal symptoms have been so strong, I haven’t been able to think…
Day 32
I don't ever want to relapse. But I don't know any other way to control the pain.
30 Day No Smoking Update
Today marks 30 days without coffee and cigarettes. I wrote the first sentence of this post eight hours ago when I woke up. I've spent those past eight hours trying…